Just when I thought life was going to be good to me and things were starting to get going decently with work and things.. then I get hit upside the head with relationship crap.. Why does it always happen that way? It never freeking fails.. NO matter what happens in life and you think its going well.. something happens to screw it up.. Why is that? Any one have any clue?

Whether its in relationships or work or life or friends.. SOMETHING ALWAYS HAPPENS... WHAT THE HELL???


 This time its in the relationship department.. I totally thought that things were starting to get back on track with my husband and we were working toward reconciliation.. but then.. he all of a sudden stopped talking to me.. Come to find out he has been with  another girl in Wisconsin.. and he didn't have the balls to tell me himself.. What is that about?..Why do they do that? I don't know whether to be mad or hurt?

 Any suggestions?

I think its both.. some people could be born with particular emotional temperaments because of how they were raised. I do believe that your brain chemistry controls your moods.. cause if you are in a good mood its written all over your face.. and if you are a bad mood then the same thing applies.. it really all depends on the situation,.. but thats just my opinion

 :)

I really wish I knew how to sew.. I would like to have new garb for Coronet but it doesn't look like its gonna happen.. and people tell me that its fairly easy.. but alas I do not have the time or the patience to do so.. so i suppose I have to live with the garb I have(unless someone has hand me downs that might fit) wink wink .. Any comments or help in this matter..

 Thanks

Wow.. I've been in Newport for 2 months now and I really am enjoying it.. I really enjoy my job.. My new store is awesome and I'm getting regular hours at my store.. I am missing the West Kingdom and the SCA in general.. But thank goodness i will be able to attend Cynaguan Coronet the weekend of Halloween. I am very much looking forward to Mari's Knighting.. This accolade is a long time coming for her and she has more then proved herself.. Other then that nothing else is really new.. just kinda taking one day at a time and seeing what happens. Hope all is well wtih everyone...

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Wow.. its been a really long time since I have put anything on here.. The biggest change is that I have moved from Sacramento to Newport Beach. It was a big leap of faith.. and well it had to happen sometime..So I am now here.. working...and trying to live my life.. I do think it will be a good move and a good change for me.I will be back up to sac often enough so people wont miss me too much..lol..

  The store that im transfering to seems to be really great and I could get a promotion here soon..

  On the man front.. no change.. one minute he loves me.. the next min he doesnt.. I dont get it.. but I love him so I guess I'll roll with the punches and see what happens..

All this work is going to finally pay off.. Evita opens tonight.. I am very excited.. I havent done anything in about 20 years so it should be great fun..Hope everyone comes and sees the show.. If ya want tickets please let me know:) It runs the whole month of may.. Friday and Sat nights and Sunday afternoons.. I would love to see ya'll there

 Hugs to all

I am soo done with raw emotion.. I hate having people who I care about die for no reason.. I have had 2 people close to me die in the past 2 days.. I cant take it anymore.. I'm SO DONE!!!


 And with rehearsals being not the greatest that stresses me out EVEN MORE.. I really hope this goes away soon.. I cant handle any more.. I really cant.. I will spontaiously combust and not in a good way..

Please send good vibes my way..

 :)

FRIENDS!!!! They understand more then family does sometimes.. And they don't judge you for it..

Well things worked out much better then I planned this past week.. Em and I had a great time together..(even though i missed Allie too)..Evita rehearsals are going really well.. Mists Coronet was a total and complete blast.. :)

 Now to get through tomorrow will be the biggest challenge.. I get to sing at 4 (YES 4) services on Easter.. and I'm soloing in 3 of them.. And today has been kind of a rough day.. I miss my oldest daughter Julianna terribly.. She passed away 11 years ago today.. so I'm pretty bummed about the whole thing.. She was a beautiful little fairy princess..and I know she is in a better place but it doesn't stop it from hurting...But I know that her strength will be with me tomorrow.. so I know I will make it through.. I guess being busy can be a good thing..

 And I do thank God for friends who have helped me adjust through this difficult time.. And i get to spend Easter with some good friends so that will be nice too.. And then back to the grind next week.. The show is coming together nicely.. I cant believe that it opens in 3 weeks..

 TTFN

Well I have no idea which way is up right now.. I moved again..I am living with a person who has a compleatly different personality then me so I'm not nessisarily sure what to do.. Dont get me wrong.. its great.. I love the house.. And the person that I'm living with is an awesome person.. I just dont know how its going to all pan out yet..

Then I'm in a musical that is occupying a whole lot of my time.. And its great.. A whole lot of fun.. (shameless plug) May 1-24th  at the 24th Street Theater downtown sacramento.. Friday and Saturday nights at 8pm and Sunday afternoons at 2:00pm..
 
I'm also going to an Event this weekend.. I'm wondering how its going to all work out there too sigh.. Guess we will have to wait and see..

And I have Em for part of the week.. so it should be a good time(at least when I'm not working)..

 So just kinda being pulled many different directions... So we shall see :)

OMG OMG OMG!!!!   I auditioned for Evita for 24th street theater and I totally got in.. I'm soo excited.. I cant even think straight.. Its going to be a great production.. Its the first time I've done musical theater in quite a long time.. the last time was in HS which was quite a few years ago.. I am an ensamble player.. but thats cool cause we are all moving.. and doing things.. Its going to be soo totally and compleatly awsome.. I cant wait.. We open May 1 and go through May 24th... So if you are availiable on a weekend come and see it :)

Nope.. I wear green all the time.. my eyes are green.. I have green in my tattoos..

Well I am finally on lj.. its been a very long time since I have been on.. I cant even remember my old e-mail address and password to see what I wrote back in the day.. Now things are going ok.. I am looking forward to crown this weekend.. Should be a good time.. I got a new dress made too.. looking forward to wearing it and suprising people..More later

 :)